I wasn't expecting a promotion this year, but I did think it was a possibility - particularly as they've introduced a technical career path in my job role, which is perfect for me as I don't want to go down the people management route. So I was extremely disappointed to discover at a recent 1-1 that my manager hadn't even put my name forward for promotion. And at the same 1-1, she then had the gall to mention that I was overpaid for my job title. Well great, so I won't even get much of an annual pay rise this year either. It's all very dispiriting - it's not like I had a bad performance review. In fact I've never had a bad performance review. But that doesn't seem to count for anything. And perhaps I'm overpaid because I'm at the wrong job level. But do I really want a promotion? I don't really want an increase in responsibility. And I probably haven't done nearly enough in my job over the last few years to justify a promotion. But then I think I'm a lot more worthy than the people who do get promoted. I can't win. Bottom line, I am really demotivated by my job right now. Just going through the motions, doing the minimal amount of work I can to get by - and not being in the least bit proactive. I don't care any more - and that is not healthy. It doesn't help that I am getting increasingly distracted and irritated by my coworkers when I go into the office. The usual culprits - people not muting their computers, talking too loudly on a call, taking meetings in their cube that I can overhear. It's all very triggering. I need something to change - whether it's my attitude, or something bigger.
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