Angst

Still majorly unhappy at work.  I’m not sure what is going on with my situation, and it is really stressing me out.  I’ve got one person telling me that I am going to be moving into a different group with a different manager.  But absolutely no mention or indication whatsoever from my current manager that anything is going to change for me.  It’s frustrating, and it’s making me very angsty.  I was told there would be some sort of announcement within a few weeks – and I was told that last week, but nothing yet.  If I’m going to stay in this job, then something does have to change – as I have reached the absolute limit of tolerance with my current manager, who is an absolute nightmare.  But even if I do get a new manager, things may or may not be much better – I’m not going to speculate too much yet, but I may be dropped straight into a Chinese cultural minefield.  Great.  Which is why I continue to keep an eye out for job postings of interest.  Came across one yesterday that piqued my interest – it was a position in Tampa, Florida.  A long way from being an industry hotspot, but a locale I would consider moving to despite never having been there.  I haven’t decided whether to apply – it would be a massive step into the unknown, so I might need some persuading, but that shouldn’t stop me from at least applying?  I don’t know – I don’t particularly want to continue moving from one job to another, and I don’t particularly want to continue moving from one city to another.  Which is why I would be prepared to put all my eggs into a San Diego basket – it’s the one city that I know, I like, and never wanted to leave before.  I still never heard back from the job there that I applied to a while back – which was and is massively disappointing – so I can only hope that another position there opens up soon.  But, sadly, I have no idea how picky I can afford to be nowadays – the gap between applying and actually getting an interview seems to be increasingly widening for me.  Conversely, perhaps I should just take a sabbatical and enjoy life for a few years living off my savings and doing things that I can do without the stress and limits of work commitments?  After all, it’s not like I need to save money towards a college fund for my non-existent kids.