Work

It was one of those days where I got incredibly mad with work.  Just totally fed up with the mundanity and inanity of what I'm doing.  If I was still working in an office, I would have left early to get out of there.  However being stuck at home, all I could do was walk away from my desk - which just felt wholly unsatisfactory.  But it dawned on me just how often I hate what I'm doing, and how much I would just love to walk away from it all.  I've already made one significant decision regarding work over the last week.  My manager wanted to push to see if she could get me a promotion - but I asked her not to.  As much as I might like (and deserve) the increase in pay, this would not just be a token promotion and I do want or need the change in role and increased responsibilities.  It is important to me to remain doing hands-on work, and I really don't want to deal with all the crap and politics that comes with more management.  I hope this decision doesn't come to bite me in the ass - but I've made clear to my manager, plus in my "self-reflection" on my performance review, exactly what I want to be doing if I'm going to have a future at this company.  I think there is a specific need for what I offer - even with so much work being outsourced - but I also think there might be quite a lot of competition for that kind of role.  So I just don't know what will happen next year...