I've never been the most interesting of people. But I think I've become really boring. Even more boring than ever before. I don't do anything exciting, I don't go anywhere exciting. I live a very plain and uneventful life. And I don't like it. I'd like to do much more and make much more of my life, but I'm really not motivated enough to do anything about it. I've become even more introverted. I've become incredibly reluctant to step outside my comfort zone. In all aspects of my life. And that's a real shame. Is this an age thing? Partly. Are there other factors at play? Partly. For example, I think working from home has ruined my work life balance. I think if this was 10 years ago, I would have done more about my current situation - quit my job, relocated, etc. But things are very different now - the job market for my kind of position is nowhere near as abundant as it used to be, I think I'm a lot more fussy about where I live, and I've just kind of settled for what I have. Which is not necessarily a good thing. I know this is not a particularly positive blog entry, but I like to speak the truth. And I've been feeling quite down recently. But my depression tends to be quite cyclical in nature, so I hope I can pick myself up sooner rather than later.
